Over the weekend, I held an infant in my arms.
He was fussy. He was tired. He was hungry but didn't want to eat.
After a few minutes of this my brother-in-law came in and took the baby telling me to go away. The poor little guy calmed down instantly and starting taking the bottle. I left the room and cried. Am I going to be a good parent? What am I going to do when my own baby comes? Is my family going to judge me and my parenting skills? My husband was a huge comfort as he told me that things would be different with our own baby - that no one would have more right and ability to take care of him than me. I know I'm pregnant and emotional but that whole experience has scared me out of my mind. How am I going to get through this? Surely this is something every new mother experiences right before birth right?
He was fussy. He was tired. He was hungry but didn't want to eat.
After a few minutes of this my brother-in-law came in and took the baby telling me to go away. The poor little guy calmed down instantly and starting taking the bottle. I left the room and cried. Am I going to be a good parent? What am I going to do when my own baby comes? Is my family going to judge me and my parenting skills? My husband was a huge comfort as he told me that things would be different with our own baby - that no one would have more right and ability to take care of him than me. I know I'm pregnant and emotional but that whole experience has scared me out of my mind. How am I going to get through this? Surely this is something every new mother experiences right before birth right?
4 comments:
Amy, don't even worry about it. We all know how good I was with babies, I pretty much thought that Helen would never want me to hold her and that she would only ever want Anthony. But now I can barely put her down she just wants to cuddle me and be held by me all the time. There is a very special bond between babies and their mommies, little Lemon Baby will love you more than anything else,I know that for a fact!
Aren't babies so funny! You should be happy that you didn't have to hold an unhappy baby :) Your baby will ADORE you!!!!!!! I was REALLY worried before I had Rachel because I never enjoyed babysitting growing up and I was going to have a baby to take care of 24/7. I worried up until she was born and haven't worried since :) You will be a wonderful Mommy and your baby will love you more than anyone in the world :)
Amy, it IS totally different when it's your own baby. I know everyone says that, so it sounds trite, but it's true! And, yes, people will judge your parenting, even people in your family, but don't let it get you down. It seems to be a favorite past time for a lot of people with nothing better to do, but they're not the ones that have to live your life, so do what feels natural to you. There's no one right way to raise children. If only it was that easy...
There's no baby like your own baby! Your baby knows YOU! Your smell, your voice everything. Yeah there will be really hard days where he will be screaming and he doesn't want anything you can offer him, but really you will be the only person that he will find comfort in!! Promise!!
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